A Pee in the Night
A stirring, an awakening, a swelling,
turn over and up?
pit-pat - pit-pat - pit-pat -
ohhh ahhh yessssssss?
a little jingle and
baby steps back to bed -
my mind - a glass bottom boat - glides over the unseen -
memories from deep emerge ?
a bright multicolored coral reef of joy
a dark dank ocean floor of despair
a shallow shoal of trivia
(and minnow-school like I swerve obedient back to sleep?)
a grotesque smiles and floats effortlessly out of view
a childhood incident kisses a lingering warmth
on occasion, if I am lucky,
a heavy unknown rhythm thunders to the core,
I free fall to the bottom
spelunk thru raw stalagmite
ache with the essential
my breath and chest on fire
until I remember?
numbers bubble up and gently extinguish the flames?
I am alive - I wish to live - I love my Self - I love my - I love - I?
a return to the breath of sleep
until such a time as
the sun will crack me open yet again
and I will bob up to the surface to resume what I presume
is my swim to an inevitable and ultimate oblivion