Besieged from dark within and clear without,
I straddle ambivalent the two worlds
where nothing is certain but certain doubt,
and persisting strong is strong fear unfurled.
Inner and outer vie for obeisance,
duel clamor flows cascading between
parental identifying adjunct
and raw primeval stimulus extreme.
Fragile, I seek shore of dependable,
but why what and who will I ever be
if never not even a momentís lull
will wash over my ephemeral me.
Honest inside is dishonest outside,
so is opposite when these two collide.